back from the dead

now, im not even counting the endless times anymore when i kept u guys waiting.
so anyway, here are the "news":

im in antalya again for 2 weeks now - how time passes by! on 21st may i left for germany and on 1st june i left again for turkey. those 10 days back home has been kinda awkward, lonely in a way and somehow i didnt want to / couldnt get used to certain things ("ich mochte mich an einige dinge nich so recht gewöhnen wollen" fits better actually [achtung wörtlich gemeint ja]). its strange when ur suddenly back into ur regular life and to see that actually nothing much slash nothing changed.
its like youve been cut out of the page of a magazine before and now - having experienced so many different things that your shape & colour actually changed, may it also be small changes only - you dont really seem to fit into this page anymore, although you originated from there.
oh but of course i also spend some good time with friends (HELLO COLOGNE, I MISSED YOU!), nice concert & nice dancing and again i could remove a good amount of chaos out of my room (yeah! xD)

so, here im gonna do my voluntary service for 2 months.
the first week was only relaxing; going to the beach, walking round the city and most importantly talking. therere so many ppl here, its all about conversation (& drinking tea (= ) actually.
oh AND: freakin let yourself be killed by the sun! its so unbelievable hot hot hot!
this week was turkish lessons (great english yes, i know thanks) until friday and today is saturday and-eh...yeah.

the project (school lessons with "disadvantaged children" they say) will start on monday and im fucking afraid. really. but im so happy that im here, that i have the chance to do this.
so im doing my project together with 2 girls from poland and one italian guy. 3 long-term volunteers from germany are still here as well. one girl is living with us, one guy is a permanent "guest" and the other guy is always somewhere else (nice information). life together is working very well and mainly takes place on the balcony. nights are cool and short (very short); i can tell the appr. time by looking at the moons position now (:

so thats about it i guess.
as i said, its all about getting to know ppl and spending time together actually, nothing big is happening. many erasmus students here, many germans (as always), many tourists, many annoying shop-sellers, many concrete buildings - and much hope & sweat.